God gently nudged at my heart the other day. Having a “mom moment” worrying about my child, God gently reminded me–my child was His first. He loved my child first and continues that love more than I ever can. Suddenly letting go and trusting God with my child wasn’t so difficult.
As parents, we want to shield or protect our children from danger, pain or the unknown. “It’s our job to protect them”, we reason. When we can’t, we feel like failures. But that’s not the case. Let’s look at the other side of it, possibly God’s side of it. Maybe this, this worry, this trial, this season is happening for a reason. Maybe it’s preparing them for something or teaching them (or us) a lesson, which we will need in our future.
Maybe this thing we are worried about is part of His plan.
Maybe it’s to teach us to trust Him more and worry less.
I cannot worry and trust God at the same time.
Trying to do both literally defies the definition of the words. The definition of worry is: to torment oneself with or suffer from disturbing thoughts. Lovely huh? The definition of trust is: reliance on the integrity, strength, ability, surety, etc., of a person or thing; confidence. Who better to trust and have confidence in than God?
If I truly trust God, I have confidence in Him, His way, His plan. When I worry and torment myself as the definition explains, I am not confident and thus not trusting God.
Hebrews 11:1 explains things this way: Faith is the confidence that what we hope for will actually happen; it gives us assurance about things we cannot see.
So do I have faith and trust God for what I cannot see, predict and may not even want?
Worry is a bad habit; it prevents me from completely trusting God. So I replace it with a good habit: prayer. When I’m tempted to worry, I try to pray instead. But I must then leave my worry or concern with God. If I end my prayer and begin to worry again, it erodes my faith.
When I do pray and let go of worry, I fully realize the power of Romans 5:3-4:
We can rejoice, too, when we run into problems and trials, for we know that they help us develop endurance. And endurance develops strength of character, and character strengthens our confident hope of salvation.
And also Romans 8:28:
And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them.
So let’s listen to those nudges God gives us. He’s talking, we just need to stop worrying long enough to hear him. Then we let go, let God and feel His peace.