Rolling and rolling, it picked up steam as I desperately tried to slow its increasing pace. I’d briefly grab hold, but the sheer force was too strong causing me to stumble and tumble all over again. Lately, I’ve felt buried under an avalanche of commitments, projects, and multiple unexpected events. Not allowing enough margin has tested me. I’m glimpsing the light again and in it, God is illuminating so much more than my need for better time management.
During this avalanche, I prayed and listened for God to show me what to give up. My answer was not to give up, but manage better. When speaking to caregivers recently, I gave them the same message. It feels harsh, but sometimes we cannot change our circumstances. In some seasons of life, there isn’t anything to let go of, we just need to manage better. While this wasn’t the answer I was hoping for, it was an answer. So onward to improved life management…
My search for better has led me to:
- Look at my habits (see previous blog posts)
- Fervently seek joy (my one word for 2017) &
- Restore and organize my precious time.
Sorting this through with some friends and family this week lent more clarity. Ideas barrage my mind and at times, I may jump in before seeking God. One friend asked what lens or criteria I use to gauge something’s importance. My answer was to see if it aligns with my overall purpose. This applies to family, work, writing or anything I do.
But then I realized I don’t always do this with my time. Maybe this hits home for you too. Another friend’s devotion encouraged me to look at how Jesus managed his time. For Him, everything was about doing His Father’s will.
He had a plan and would alter it if needed, but how Jesus spent his time always came back to God’s will. This resonated and illuminated for me to stop chasing my own will and truly seek His.
Taking a rare moment over the holidays, I discovered my verse for this year.
For everything there is a season, a time for every activity under heaven. ~Ecclesiastes 3:1
Everything has a season. God is demonstrating, in big and small ways, this season for me is about managing. Continuing what I’m already doing but better and more efficiently, knowing more may be coming.
Enhanced time management means better organization. I want to be present with enough margin for the unexpected. I pray: To not rush as I seek God’s plans. To not be distracted when helping a loved one. To be fully present as I snuggle with a child or listen to a friend.
As I manage and try to organize better, even amid uncertainty, I know more lessons will be learned.
Lessons about habits,
New ways of organizing leading to stolen moments of margin,
And most importantly, how to live this life of following Him by finding joy in every step.
This is what life is about: not how well I can plan and execute, but planning well enough to be present when it matters. This following, this faith I try to live doesn’t always go smoothly. But as my pastor and the psalmist remind us:
But each day the Lord pours his unfailing love upon me, and through each night I sing his songs, praying to God who gives me life. ~Psalm 42:8 (NLT)
If you know me, you won’t be surprised I’m already keeping a list of the lessons God is showing me. I’ll share them with you here in the coming months. But let’s remember this: it’s not about the avalanche. It’s about where the avalanche takes us and what we learn along the way. And seeing it all through the lens of God’s will.